Then one of the Twelve, the man called Judas Iscariot, went to the chief priests and said, “What are you willing to give me if I hand him over to you?” So they weighed out thirty pieces of silver for him. And from that time he started looking for a good opportunity to betray him. Matthew 26:14-16 (CSB)
He replied, “The one who dipped his hand with me in the bowl—he will betray me. The Son of Man will go just as it is written about him, but woe to that man by whom the Son of Man is betrayed! It would have been better for him if he had not been born.” Judas, his betrayer, replied, “Surely not I, Rabbi?” “You have said it,” he told him. Matthew 26:23–25 (CSB)
While he was still speaking, Judas, one of the Twelve, suddenly arrived. A large mob with swords and clubs was with him from the chief priests and elders of the people. His betrayer had given them a sign: “The one I kiss, he’s the one; arrest him.” So immediately he went up to Jesus and said, “Greetings, Rabbi!” and kissed him. “Friend,” Jesus asked him, “why have you come?” Then they came up, took hold of Jesus, and arrested him. Matthew 26:47–50 (CSB)
Then Judas, his betrayer, seeing that Jesus had been condemned, was full of remorse and returned the thirty pieces of silver to the chief priests and elders. “I have sinned by betraying innocent blood,” he said. “What’s that to us?” they said. “See to it yourself!” So he threw the silver into the temple and departed. Then he went and hanged himself. Matthew 27:3–5 (CSB)
I have to admit it- I wrestled with writing this because of the weightiness of the text. But, when Holy Spirit nudges and the conviction deepens, one must move in obedience quickly. The past few months have been very transformative for me to say the least. I went through a season of re-dedication to the Lord. This was followed by some very powerful shifts and moves from our most gracious and loving Father. Now, I am in a new place spiritually. I pray to God that this place only strengthens and deepens day by day.
I was in worship this morning followed by reading and meditating on my daily Bible passage. God began to highlight something to me in the Word as it is leading up to the death and resurrection of our Lord Jesus Christ (Yeshua Hamashiach). I started to think about Judas on a different level. I began to feel compassion for him and wondered what happened to him to want to betray our Savior. Then I realized it was very subtle.
Judas was consumed with money. He was known as a thief, and ironically was in charge of the money bag when walking with Jesus ( John 12:6). He was with Jesus and watched him perform many signs and wonders, and even walked with the other disciples, but he still would betray Jesus. Jesus always provided for them and protected them, but he would still hand him over to be killed. I began to think more deeply into this as my spirit became vexed and grieved.
As I read about Judas’ life and his untimely ending due to regret and remorse, I began to wonder how many times we have betrayed Jesus for what the world had to offer? I thought about my own life. I repented for times I knew I was not walking with God fully; betraying the Word made flesh to feed carnal desires. I sat and thought to myself: “who am I to judge anyone?”
I began to imagine the steps that led to Judas’ fate, which is estimated to have occurred in the span of hours. When Judas decided that money was more important than Jesus, he gave the devil open access. He allowed the enemy to use him in this way. Judas, like us, can become blinded by our sin so much so that we do not even evaluate the consequence until it is too late. As my BFF says, “if you cant say amen, say ouch”.
The action to betray Jesus, started first in the mind, then embedded into his will, which he then gave himself over to by yielding to that great deception. I cant imagine what he must have been going through in his mind after he betrayed Jesus, but something shifted. It is like he came back to himself and realized what he had done. I wonder if the enemy taunted him. I wonder if the accuser began to harass him and isolate him, like he does us when we do not allow our thoughts to be captivated by Jesus ( 2 Corinthians 10:5).
Judas grieved his decision, and was remorseful, but instead of repenting or finding wise counsel to confess to and confide in; he ended his life abruptly. And although that is his story, it does not have to be ours. We can come to Him with all of our baggage, our shame, our pride, our ego, and even our own self-deception and turn to Him.
It is time to repent- to turn permanently to Him. There is an urgency in my spirit to plead with everyone reading this. Examine your heart and ways. Confirm with the Lord if you are in the faith before it is too late. God is drawing His people back to Himself. He desires that none of us perish (2 Peter 3:9). He wants us to be with Him and in Him is the only way to live. To God Be the Glory!
Stay in Prayer and Stay Encouraged.
Seek Him. Obey the Call. Complete Your Assignment.